I have schizophrenia and anxiety and have suffered from depression in the past.
Here is a poem I wrote about depression and recovering from it.
Was stuck in a bad place had to find a way out Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
Had to start from the ground up with no desire to even get up. In fact I was close to giving up. Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
But I never stopped trying even when I wished I was dying. Reached out to everyone I knew but I became too much to take. Too much too tolerate. Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
I remember it felt like someone ripped out my heart and soul and took everything I had that was good and trapped me in a dark hole. With no escape, no way out. On the inside screaming out. But no one could hear me. No one dared to come near me. They just listened to my heart wrenching cries and continued to walk
Because I wasn't actually screaming on the outside.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels. I woke up every day to relive the same recurring nightmare one that wouldn't go away
I'm no angel but I'm the one who chose to save me. I took the steps I needed to seek help at first it didn't work out. But then I found the right medicine. And I began my journey to feel free to feel like me again.
I lost a lot of friends now I find ways to cope reasons to smile and I do it mostly alone. And for once I feel good inside. Like the weight of the world is off my chest. And I actually like me again and enjoy spending time with myself. Tell me do you know how good it feels?
If your battling depression I wish recovery for you. Because it's no place anyone wants to be I hope you never know how that feels.
Poem
I was looking for a way out. Couldn’t see the light. Then a trip to emergency saved my life. No more being in so much pain that you pray for god to take you. My pain is released now. It was a fight you wouldn’t believe so please don’t look at me like I’m weak. Because you don’t know the strength it took to get here. I went through hell and back. Some people don’t come back from this some people take their life.
It’s a deadly isolating disease I won’t be ashamed to say that I beat it. Because there was years where I thought. I didn’t want to be here. Now I’m healthier and strong. See I was lost and nobody could find me. But even when times got hard my family stuck by me. They fought for me took me out of the darkness and brought me into the light. So if your suffering just know it’ll get better. You just have to keep up the fight.
From now until Friday, May 10th, I'm showcasing my hidden talent in support of mental health!
CAMH One Brave Night is a chance to share a piece of myself with the world for a great cause. I am excited (and a bit nervous!) to express my passion and creativity, so we can inspire hope for the one in five Canadians who experience mental illness every year.
Please donate today and help me reach my fundraising goal.
Together we will break down stigma, fund innovative research, and provide access to new and promising treatments for people living with mental illness
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Here is a poem I wrote about depression and recovering from it.
Was stuck in a bad place had to find a way out Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
Had to start from the ground up with no desire to even get up. In fact I was close to giving up. Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
But I never stopped trying even when I wished I was dying. Reached out to everyone I knew but I became too much to take. Too much too tolerate. Tell me do you know how that pain feels?
I remember it felt like someone ripped out my heart and soul and took everything I had that was good and trapped me in a dark hole. With no escape, no way out. On the inside screaming out. But no one could hear me. No one dared to come near me. They just listened to my heart wrenching cries and continued to walk
Because I wasn't actually screaming on the outside.
Tell me do you know how that pain feels. I woke up every day to relive the same recurring nightmare one that wouldn't go away
I'm no angel but I'm the one who chose to save me. I took the steps I needed to seek help at first it didn't work out. But then I found the right medicine. And I began my journey to feel free to feel like me again.
I lost a lot of friends now I find ways to cope reasons to smile and I do it mostly alone. And for once I feel good inside. Like the weight of the world is off my chest. And I actually like me again and enjoy spending time with myself. Tell me do you know how good it feels?
If your battling depression I wish recovery for you. Because it's no place anyone wants to be I hope you never know how that feels.
Poem
I was looking for a way out. Couldn’t see the light. Then a trip to emergency saved my life. No more being in so much pain that you pray for god to take you. My pain is released now. It was a fight you wouldn’t believe so please don’t look at me like I’m weak. Because you don’t know the strength it took to get here. I went through hell and back. Some people don’t come back from this some people take their life.
It’s a deadly isolating disease I won’t be ashamed to say that I beat it. Because there was years where I thought. I didn’t want to be here. Now I’m healthier and strong. See I was lost and nobody could find me. But even when times got hard my family stuck by me. They fought for me took me out of the darkness and brought me into the light. So if your suffering just know it’ll get better. You just have to keep up the fight.
From now until Friday, May 10th, I'm showcasing my hidden talent in support of mental health!
CAMH One Brave Night is a chance to share a piece of myself with the world for a great cause. I am excited (and a bit nervous!) to express my passion and creativity, so we can inspire hope for the one in five Canadians who experience mental illness every year.
Please donate today and help me reach my fundraising goal.
Together we will break down stigma, fund innovative research, and provide access to new and promising treatments for people living with mental illness
