I have suffered with depression for the last 20 years but never really paid attention to it, until in 1995, as a single Mom in the Canadian Armed Forces, posted to Saskatchewan. The BLACKNESS came and I felt like the world would be better off without me and I chose to end my life by driving and wrapping my vehicle around a power pole. I picked out the pole and drove by it everyday for 2 years, and eyed it up every passing. When I went to get help for it the doctor said I was just trying to get out of work and to get back to it. I was devastated. How could a professional say that to me and get away with it?? It was after that, I had to deal with a very difficult person at work who harrassed me to no end. The final act of harrassment was him taping a sign on my back that was a target that said,"STOP, don't shoot. There is a woman inside these coveralls!" I laughed it off and felt my heart shatter inside. It was a year after that I got a posting to Nova Scotia.
Now today here I am, I still deal with depression but I am hopeful I can beat it each and every time it rears it's ugly head. If you suffer with any mental illness please...get help!!! It will and can feel better :-)
Thank you for reading my story.
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